Do you want to change your sexual orientation?

Perhaps I'm too simple, but I really just cannopt easily separate these points out! I am me and what society gets, God, "a more Biblical understanding of who I am in Christ"[?] and fellow Christians get as well. I know that my "orientation" was towards men; I enjoyed their company, wanted a relationship and wanted their love. Oh yes, but was this physical or was I, simplyfying it somewhat, so hungry for the relationship with a man, my father, that I never had? I can now see, in hindsight, that it was in being given this challenging thought that restrained me from "going over the edge" physically, not that the desire and oportuniity wasn't so often there! Had I not given my life to Jesus as a child, I dread to think where I would be now.

In the latter part of my life, as I discovered that I must focus on Jesus and that He is truly the only answer to everything, so I have been able to hand over the SSA for absolute healing, which for me became unquestionable possible. The direction, sorting out my early childhood, was initially clarified as being the area that needed "cleansing", but it was the "process" that confused me. Initially, an anglican vicar took me through a fairly regimented, two evening, "inner healing" formatt but, "Your ways are not my ways" and I knew it wasn't, by any means complete. I then beseeched Jesus to move in and have His way with me so that, as I felt, I might become a more "whole" person for Him. So over the next few years He did. It was costly; "weeping bitterly", repentance, and discovering real love, but through the jumble of painful emotions I knew something was happening and I clung to Him. I'm not completely sure how but the conference "sweeked the tail" of the orientation "episode": most of my life!, and I can now say I am truly healed and satan's trip wires are becoming ineffective as I put my trust totally in Him. As I write, I suppose this has provided another learning curve. As a little child I learnt to trust only myself, now..........!            Brian